Home.

What a whirlwind. We are home, safe and somewhat sound. We got back yesterday morning after LilyJoy decided that 3:30am was a good time to wake up in LA. I looked at Steve and said, let's just get to the airport and put ourselves on standby for an earlier flight. We got to LAX, were told we'd have no problem getting on the 6am flight and were on our way before we knew what was happening! We surprised my parents and the boys who were expecting us later in the afternoon. It was precious to see all of their faces-- I wish I had the camera. Isn't it funny how much older your kids seem to you when you've left them for a time? I've been so proud of S and T and how they have handled having LilyJoy around. They really are doting big brothers, albeit a little rough sometimes! It is very sweet to watch.

As for LilyJoy, I sort of faded out of the blogging world a bit toward the end there. I'm thinking it was kind of a defense mechanism, actually. I mentioned before that she really is velcro baby to Steve and she hasn't changed a whole lot in that respect when she is tired, hungry, needs comforting or is just feeling insecure. It has been one of the hardest things that I have ever had to deal with. She just doesn't want me. I am so nervous for when Steve goes back to work. We have a while, though, so I need to just take it one step at a time. Easier said than done, but I'm trying. I'll tell you what, though, I have NEVER appreciated my boys as much as I have during these days. I hug and kiss them and love all over them as much as possible because they LET ME! :)

Anyway, the jet lag is brutal! I'm trying some melatonin tonight, but the problem is that Lily is still confused. OY! I can't win! I will try and post some pictures as soon as we get them off of the Noteb**k we used in China. Thanks for all your support and prayers on our journey! I love this blogging community.